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Sunday, November 12th, 2006
9:49 am	BANG!!!! I have just lived through one of the greatest experiences of my life!...seriously, the way I felt after Langerado w/ all my positive happy energy and such for anyone who remembers my times back then...anyways, that's the way I feel right now...I've lived my life just a little bit more to the extent and I'm just feeling overall great...I will admitt that there were ups & downs throughout the day, but it was overall worth it...it was amazing!!!!!!! one real main reason why...is because I saw a performance that was SO FUCKING AMAZING that I'm NEVER going to forget it, and I will always tell others about it and the experience and how it felt and such...I'll always have a story w/ this one...even though it'll always end w/ me saying that "you'll just have to see it one day if you ever get the chance."...seriously though, this performance was one of the best that I've ever seen in my life...it is RADIOHEAD worthy, and it is surely worthy of The Flaming Lips...this performance I speak of is ofcourse the one and only amazing... DAFTPUNK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! here is a little taste of what I've experienced... (check out youtube videos aswell if you wanna get an idea as far as how great the music is w/ this visuals) AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! absolutely incredible x 1892398238934534678934678922389246789427892489725789 = AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!! I was anticipating it all day, and it lived up to it's hype so I'm overall extremely happy about BANG!!!! just for that...there were a few lows...like, when we first got in, we weren't suppose to be there...we tried finsing a place to chill, but it wasn't working out...we had to act like we were working when we really weren't...then finally after opening the gates 1 hour and 15 minutes later passed the regular open gates time made shit just too fucked already...many artists who were waiting to play got kicked off just because they started first..they had to carry on I guess...the first big music act was Common, and WAOH!, this shit was fucking awesome! it was like what a rock band would sound like if black people did it, and it was brilliant...it had the vibe that The Roots kinda give off...it was great...then I just hung out w/ so many amazing people that I ran into left & right and just had good times right there...and then waited for almost an hour & 1/2 for Gnarls Barkley...they were schedualed to play at 6:45, but ofcourse they were having "technical difficulties"...w/e, fuck 'em...everyone got pissed...some people left to go watch Tiesto (which I missed)...but I had to see Gnarls Barkley, and when they finally came on at 8...it was definately worth the wait...Danger Mouse and Cee-Lo Green, and their band dressed up as Austin Powers characters (DM being Austin ofcourse while Cee-Lo is Dr. Evil)...incredible though...they were really great live...it was fun to watch their album come to life...and I was extremely blitz at the time, but watching Cee-Lo Green made me laugh...he seemed like such an awesome person that ANYONE would wanna go talk to...he interacted w/ the crowd and everything...he was a trip, and Danger Mouse just chilled w/ his gear jammin' and smilin' a little bit...at one point Cee-Lo was wondering about Marry-Jane, so, he was all like "c'mon folks, I thought this was a festival, I can't smell any mother Earth out there...y'all best to get things more funky up in here."...we tried so hard to hand him a joint, but he didn't seem to take notice...it was still a fun trip to watch Cee-Lo just talk about...w/e...while singing Gnarls Barkley tunes...it was cool when they played "Crazy" 'cause then Cee-Lo was being all cool and honest about his career at that point...he was all like "ok, everyone...y'all ain't tired yet, right?...ok, good, just checkin'...anyways, this next song is the defining moment for Gnarls Barkley, and it is the reason why I'm so fuckin' rich right now...so, how 'bout we start to fuckin' party our asses off...and oh yes, show me your spirit fingers too."...he was pretty awesome...anyways...I left right at the end of Gnarls Barkley to catch a good spot for Daft Punk which I luckily got to just in time, and I figured after Daft Punk I'll go finish up w/e Modest Mouse has left 'cause I knew they were gonna be playing later now since the tech people fucked up Gnarls Barkley...I unfortunately lost my opportunity to see Thievery Corporation, but anything at this festival was worth missing just to see Daft Punk...believe me on that one!...so, after I was blown away by Daft Punk I went back to check up Modest Mouse, but it just got done, and it sucks 'cause I really wanted to see some of their stuff...I did find some cool peeps and chilled w/ them for awhile until my ride called me in complete disappointment telling me that we had to go now, and to fuck Duran Duran...when I reached my friend who stayed to see MM over DP told me the tragic story, and I felt so bad for him 'cause he looked like he was about to cry like one of the people did in the story he told me...turns out that the tech guys for the MM stage (where Gnarls Barkley also played at-before MM) they fucked it up again for MM and took an hour & something mins. to fix some stupid shit or w/e, and then MM went on and they were really happy and into it aswell as everyone else, and then unfortunately 8 songs in (not even) the stage guy walked up to Isaac Broc giving him bad news, and Isaac didn't believe the guy, so, he kept on playing w/ the rest of the band, and they don't even get into a good jam yet w/ the song that they were playing and the guy cut their power off and started taking their gear down so that they could start setting up for Duran Duran 'cause even though they opened the festival much later than they were suppose to (1 hour 15 mins.) they had no plans to extend the curfue...so, apparently from what I head, at that moment Isaac slowly puts his mouth to the mic and said "we're getting kicked off for time consuming purposes...thanks for having us though, it meant a lot to us...have a good night."...and then he walked off, and the rest of the band aswell one by one...I did not get to see any of this...and I'm kinda glad about that too 'cause I would've hated to watch them get kicked off for no good reason...I guess I'll just have to check youtube if they get any of that...Daft Punk though...made my whole time being there so eventful and meaningful...I'm SO happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D Cee-Lo Green is a total gangsta!!! Modest Mouse (sorry to hear about the tragic cut-off...I hope to catch you guys at a better time someday when I wont have to leave you for Daft Punk) Thievery Corporation (sorry I didn't get to see any of you guys...I'll try to catch you at another time) Common - this guy and his band were actually pretty fuckin' good...it jammed out and it was real chill...it was great...check 'em out! check all of these things out if you haven't already. BANG!!!! is seriously one of the best events I've ever attended...it is & was simply amazing!!! Peace everyone <3 Current Mood: highhappy Current Music: Daft Punk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 30th, 2006
5:17 am	BITCHES! (and I don't say that meaning every girl) Last night at Brittany's party, Ashley asked me if I would take LJ pictures for her, and I was like "sure, but I don't even use LJ anymore." now, I'm sure you're all aware that I've "quit" LJ...I have to be honest w/ you even though it may seem like I haven't...I use to be on this thing a lot reading other people's shit and commenting and all sorts of crap, and occasionally I'll come back to read all the stupid shit I've posted just so I can keep myself from acting up like a damn fool again...last night was a really great night all the way through, every little bit of the time was perfect...I feel like I broke down some imaginary barriers and made a better bond amongst everyone...I'm not afraid to hide things anymore, and I am certainly NOT a hypocrit...nothing bad happened at all last night...everything was perfect...I'm just saying for my own self. anyways...I'm back again only for the same exact shit from last time, and I just want it here so I can remember how fucking dumb this shit is and so I can ask myself "why?"...this just goes to show that desperation kills anyone...even me!...and yeah, it sucks, and we all deal w/ it one way or the other/here & there, but w/e...you know it's bad when you're acting like this person... AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:00 PM]: Hey Sky. Only1Sky87 [10:00 PM]: hi AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:00 PM]: whats up? Only1Sky87 [10:03 PM]: nm, a little busy...you? AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:04 PM]: kinda tired. AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:04 PM]: lol i saw you at hot topic and lacey came in and she started talking to you and it was so funny cause shes sos dumb and i dont think u know her but shes really weird AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:04 PM]: and i looked at her like wtf do you even know sky lol Only1Sky87 [10:05 PM]: she's been talking to me for like a year since she saw me while I was working AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:05 PM]: great. Only1Sky87 [10:05 PM]: no, it isn't AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:06 PM]: shes kinda weird and when she told u to bite your lip AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:06 PM]: woh Only1Sky87 [10:09 PM]: ...yeah AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:10 PM]: yeah you probably think im weird so. Only1Sky87 [10:11 PM]: ok AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:11 PM]: thanks. AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:11 PM]: sorry im not in a good mood AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:11 PM]: my boyfriend just died and well AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:11 PM]: you dont wanna hear it AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:11 PM]: sorry Only1Sky87 [10:12 PM]: no, I don't wanna hear it so, w/e AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:12 PM]: bye Only1Sky87 [10:12 PM]: bye AmanduhhxPLEASE [10:12 PM]: sorry for being bitchy sky ...alright, it didn't seem that desperate, but truthfully around the corner it was on it's way if you read the shit from last time. now...here's where I ask the "why?"...WHY can't I just have A beautiful,cool,smart/intelligent,fun,intellectual,crafty,artistic,indie girl? ...idk, but I'm seriously sick of the dumb desperate bitches like that one who just bug me all the time over stupid shit...at work,at school,on the computer...WTF? other than that this weekend has been great...everything about the party last night was great from the people to just the time of the day...I was really happy, and to be honest...I guess I feel more close w/ a lot of those people now since I hung around all of them in my boxers :P lol, yeah, I dressed up as a flasher, and I loved it...I think I'm gonna do it at school on tuesday...I'm gonna think about that one first. I slept outside for the first time last night...it was insane, but really interesting...I would've enjoyed it more if the weather was more fair...I still liked it a lot though...and watching the sunrise in Brittany's backyard just made me even more complete in a way...it was beautiful to just see the things I never find time to see, and watching it there at that time was just so amazing. I'm tired...PEACE! Current Mood: high Current Music: Beck - "Think I'm In Love" (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 15th, 2006
3:08 pm	creepy zombies I really don't care about LJ anymore, but I had to put this out there 'cause I thought it was a little funny, but also creepy...is it wrong to feel that way?...it shouldn't...I was just a little weirded out...freshman = creepy psychotic zombies...1 of them may be the sweet intelligent hot mature one, but that is rare most of the time...in this girl's case...it's not working. AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:00 PM]: hey sky Only1Sky87 [4:00 PM]: hey AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:00 PM]: whats up Only1Sky87 [4:00 PM]: music...I have to check something and then get back to working on it AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:01 PM]: okay AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:01 PM]: have fun AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:02 PM]: text me or something.ttyl AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:05 PM]: lol and if you havent notcied half the population of freshman girls want you.good luck Only1Sky87 [4:07 PM]: uhm...this is news to me Only1Sky87 [4:07 PM]: lol AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:07 PM]: lol your kidding right? AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:07 PM]: you didnt know EVERYONE wants you? AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:07 PM]: psht you needa catch up Only1Sky87 [4:07 PM]: no...I didn't think they were even looking at me AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:07 PM]: woah. AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:07 PM]: you need to get caught up sky Only1Sky87 [4:08 PM]: maybe you should keep me caught up AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:08 PM]: yeah im gonna do that lol Only1Sky87 [4:08 PM]: tell me more that I don't know AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:08 PM]: alright well, AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:08 PM]: every freshman girl talks abuot how gorgeous you are AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:08 PM]: and how bad they want you AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:08 PM]: in bed yeah scary i know. Only1Sky87 [4:08 PM]: every single one? AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:08 PM]: pretty much yeah Only1Sky87 [4:09 PM]: wow...I'm a celebrity amongst 15 year olds AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:09 PM]: at lunch,practically every girl either stares or gazes at your face/butt AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:09 PM]: yah you are Only1Sky87 [4:09 PM]: whoa..ok AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:09 PM]: everybody goes into hot topic to see you only basically if they go to cchs AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:10 PM]: in every class they talk about how amazing and hot and great you are and how they want you in bed yeahh. Only1Sky87 [4:11 PM]: this is crazy...that's a lot of girls...I couldn't possibly do them all...and even if I did that could mean a lot of infested crap I don't need...I'm pure...I don't need infection from dozens of freshman girls AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:12 PM]: ha your gonna be hearing this all year. AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:12 PM]: ps a lot of the freshman girls stalk you and want you to shave your beard/mustaceh AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:12 PM]: i find that funny how they study your every body party AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:12 PM]: part* AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:12 PM]: freak AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:12 PM]: s Only1Sky87 [4:12 PM]: hey hey hey!!!!!!!!!! AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:12 PM]: heh i didnt say it they did Only1Sky87 [4:13 PM]: I've never grown a...hmmm...idk how to spell it, but...I've never grown a go-tee before...I'm interested in how it might look AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:13 PM]: lol Only1Sky87 [4:13 PM]: idk though...I think I need to shave once more before it can fully grow properly in my case AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:14 PM]: i gues i wouldnt know Only1Sky87 [4:14 PM]: I've been studying it for a while now, lol AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:14 PM]: lol but theyve been studying it longer AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:14 PM]: trust me AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:14 PM]: your lucky im a freshman and i can tell you thesse things AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:14 PM]: or else you would still be absolutley clueless AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:15 PM]: they also think you are the hottest guy in school Only1Sky87 [4:15 PM]: well...how do I know you're telling me the truth AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:16 PM]: dont believe me i dont care.im a freshamn i hear your name or people talking about you or people staring at you about 5000 times a day AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:16 PM]: i have to put up with people going OMG i didnt see sky today ahh im gonna go crazy or hes sohot today damn i want thi AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:16 PM]: him* Only1Sky87 [4:17 PM]: desperation is a terrible feeling AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:17 PM]: ha AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:17 PM]: especialy when there despressed about not seeing you all day Only1Sky87 [4:18 PM]: yeah..............uhhhhhhh...that's a little too crazy...especially if you don't know me AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:18 PM]: im not saying its me cause its not sorry lol. AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:18 PM]: they probably know more about you than you know about yourseld AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:18 PM]: yourself* AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:18 PM]: and they look at your myspace a million times a day to see your lovely pictures Only1Sky87 [4:19 PM]: ooooooook...I'm sure the only one who knows me is me AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:20 PM]: they really really like you a lot sky,they watch youeveryday and freak if they see you or dont see you AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:20 PM]: there obssesd Only1Sky87 [4:20 PM]: if they stared at my pics then why don't I have 100s of comments from all of them? AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:20 PM]: they dont want you knowing they look at you. AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:20 PM]: half arent your friends Only1Sky87 [4:21 PM]: obsession can destroy you on the inside...especially when you don't get what you want AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:21 PM]: ill be sure and tell them that AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:21 PM]: you are they most popular/hottest guy in school to every girl AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:21 PM]: the* AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:22 PM]: watch how many girls stare at you next time your working AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:23 PM]: i find it funny how they stare and obsses. AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:23 PM]: make sure your butt isnt showing.oh yeah and one girl brooke she named your ass gob AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:23 PM]: god* Only1Sky87 [4:24 PM]: I take notce to all that crap all the fucking time 'cause it never ends at my work...getting hit on by anyone comes w/ my job...and if you can't control it then you're fucked AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:24 PM]: lol yeah.every girl hits on you AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:25 PM]: it will never end at your work. Only1Sky87 [4:25 PM]: ok...I really need to get back to working on my music stuff AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:25 PM]: yeah. AmanduhhxPLEASE [4:25 PM]: just thought u needed to know what freshman girls are doing Only1Sky87 [4:26 PM]: that's great...thanks for all of that crazyness ...ok, I'm not gonna lie...my confidence was a little bit boosted by this, but also at the same time...it's just a little too crazy...by the way...Ju & I had an amazing music session last night...and we're thinking about doing a re-make of Gnarls Barkley's "Crazy" in a more 90's alternative grundge rock type thing...like Sonic Youth meets early Beck type stuff...other than that we made up some rather amazing stuff that I REALLY WANT TO RECORD 'cause we were doing all our stuff from scratch and it was just amazing the whole way through...I'm excited to continue w/ this music process, and Bippin' Tralls (my jam band)...is doing REALLY fucking good...we've been mostly chillin' the past few days, but shit is just getting better and better...I can't fucking wait to perform in front of everyone...it's gonna be amazing...YEAH!!!!!!!!!!! ok, I'm out for now...if anyone would like to visit me today then that'd be great...I get out of work at 4 so if no visit then I'm down for w/e this evening...that is ofcourse, if anyone is really reading this...anyways, I'm out for now....PEACE! Current Mood: happy Current Music: YYY's - "Phenomena" (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 18th, 2006
5:20 pm	I get the feeling that I'm doing what's right I hate letting go of good things...I never really do that, but I have to. so, starting now...I'm letting "her" go. I don't want to, but I have to. I can't help but feel like it's not gonna get better the way I've imagined it in my mind...Lily showed me Fischerspooner earlier this week...I've heard some of their stuff before, but I got more into it, and she made me a copy of their cd and gave it to me today...since I got home I've been listening to it...and even right now...it's mending me in some way. I guess I'm just realizing...will I have to start over?...yes I will. "she" will still remain a hero in my eyes 'cause being w/ "her" showed me that I was more happy w/o any substances...unfortunately I still did them w/ my friends who did them (just smoking & drinking)...and I got angry w/ myself all the time back then...and I just didn't enjoy having my life be unbalanced like that...half of it good, and the other half bad...I had to get better on my own, and I knew it wasn't gonna end for awhile, and I didn't wanna keep on feeling bad about it, so, I had to end the good half of my life for a while to make matters better for myself...instead trying to let go for a few months made me an asshole at times...eventually though, I got better...but I was too late by that time...and then I slipped on accident over the summer, and was slightly w/ a girl for less than 2 weeks who wanted to get w/ my friend more than me which was why she was w/ me in the first place, to make him jealous...fuck her! I don't care anyways...I told her I just wanted to be friends and she ended up going too far while I was altered one night...I'm glad I never really did anything w/ her...and throughout those 2 weeks I thought about "her" too much...so I ended shit w/ that other cunt on good terms...I quickly put myself back in order from all those substances, and I've been perfectly fine for over 2 months now...and I intend on staying that way...will I find another "her" someday?...nope...I hate myself for fucking up, but at least I got my life in better sorts 'cause of it...unfortunately I lost something in the end and that's what hurts the most...and now I have to let go entirely of my emotions 'cause I honestly can't go on like this...I know that I mean nothing of what I use to mean...will it ever turn out good and get better than before one day?...idk, only time will tell, and if that moment ever comes then I'll deal w/ it then...for now...I am letting go, and I know it's the best thing I can do for myself...I can't live a lie, and I can't keep thinking it'll get better...my hopes have been given up many times before, and I'm really fucking sick of it so...I gotta make matters better for myself...I write really great poems now for some reason, and I don't enjoy having these emotional feelings that give me hope, but make me feel nothing...I don't feel anymore...the feeling isn't what it use to be...the feeling...the feeling is gone...I'm gonna hate myself for the next week, but I know what's right, and I'm sure "she" wants me to do so. ok...that's it...to start off now...I think I'll go work on music. take care everyone...peace! Current Mood: letting go of my feelings Current Music: Fischerspooner - Never Win (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 17th, 2006
5:19 pm	don't you worry...I'm in no hurry so...I'm FINALLY not walking to school anymore, or ever again...YES!...I'm so happy that I have my own parking space...I enjoy driving into the parking lot every morning to see my last name on a curb...it's pretty sweet...anyways...here is how my day goes w/ school, and I gotta say...it feels good to be a senior... 1. photo 3 2. ceramics/pottery 3. drawing 1 4. government economics ...basically, I'm in the art building all day up until lunch (B)...and then I get to go all the way out to portable 16, and then to the parking lot so I can drive home...my day at school is pretty simplistic now and I really love that...I'm going to enjoy this semester a lot. yesterday I was at Richard's working on music w/ him and a couple others...it's not my main music, but I guess you could call it a little project on the side from my usual stuff...it's cool though...we made some cool shit up until Ryan got there...then it turned into mainly Ryan & Richard and then spilling out rhymes over the mic for this one song...it was funny though...Ryan was rapping all like "cooper city thugs/yeah we got the best drugs/if you don't like my shit/then I don't give a fuck"...it was pretty funny when we would play back the recording...he then was all like "I am totally MCing for our stuff"...before that we took a break for a while watching videos on the youtube & google video...I FINALLY got to see some She Wants Revenge music videos, and I thought they all kicked ass..."Tear You Apart" is one of my favorite music videos now...like top 5...I showed Richard the best music video ever (Unkle - "Rabbit In Your Headlights")...I also saw the Daft Punk video for "Robot Rock", and that shit was awesome...we found this small rap group called Prep-Unit, and they had this music video called "Tea Partay", and it was pretty funny...we also watched Darth Vader go on a blind date,LMFAO,that was hilarious...Darth Vader actually sings at the end!...I was trying to find the video that ET made 8 months ago when she sucked in the helium from the balloon and started talking...but unfortunately we couldn't find it...it got pretty late...like,10 something so, I went home...when I got home my gas light turned on, so, I had to go get gas then I went home...my parents told me that they think I should get out of school in december and then start dual enrollment or something at BCC...idk what to do yet...we shall see. the other day at work this girl came in who comes in sometimes and her mother gave me godiva chocolate from her daughter...she told me that she wasn't a stalker, but that she thought I was a really awesome guy and that she wanted to give me that godiva chocolate to show me what she means?...ok, thats cool I guess...it made my day more eventful...she then came in herself and said that she didn't want me to think she was crazy and stuff like that...I told her that I didn't think she was crazy at all, and then she said "ok. have a good night. see ya later" and then left...I went to go hang out w/ Kelly on my break at the kool spot...I have a little something more to do on my breaks now that I can go hang out w/ someone, and her other kool spot friend is cool to talk to...I enjoy going there now...I stuck my hand in a cup of tapiocha, and o0o0o0o0o0o0o0...let me tell you, it touched me in special places just by sticking my fingers in there...it was pretty awesome. I saw a girl today who I was fond of 4 years ago, and...she still hasn't changed...do I care?...no...she still looks depressed and upset about who knows what in her life...I observed closely and went up to talk to her, and through her responses I remember how good it feels to not live on those terms...like, looking upset all the time and depressed...completely unapproachable...I understand that we all have bad days, but all the time?...c'mon now...we can be happy at times...just think positive...it's not hard if you try...so, when people call me a sensitive emo fuck...then fuck them...nobody knows me...the only people who know me are the ones who take the time to be in my presence...I use to be upset a lot a couple of years ago, but I easily grew out of that b/s. I'm gonna go work on some music...peace! Current Mood: pleased Current Music: Gnarls Barkley - "St. Elsewhere" (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 13th, 2006
4:44 pm	i have never felt so alive last night was amazing. I'm glad I used it well...Abbie & Ze Brittany were gonna hang out, but instead Abbie stiffed me...again, so, w/e...fuck it...I called Abbie telling her that she was building herself a bad reputation, and that I wanted to make her aware of that. it was Kenny's last night chillin' w/ us for a long time...like, we're not gonna see him for a long time to come...we planned on going bolwing, but instead they all changed their mind once they got to my house so, me,Kenny,Nathan,Ricky,and Andrew just chilled and hung out at my house talking and not doing anything...Andrew left to go visit this girl at work, and then my sister,Kait, decided on going to Starbucks :D so, we all gathered in her car, and went on over there...this was like 10:45 too...we hung out there for like half an hour and then went our separate ways...Nathan took Ricky home and then he went to go hang out w/ Emily...Namel was gonna hang out, but she stiffed us aswell (today she calls me being all apologetic and all...w/e)...Kait went back to her apartment, and I felt like chillin' at Mike's + Kenny never met him before, and I'm always telling Kenny about our music...so, he finally met my bandmate last night and it was fun...we didn't do any music...we just chilled and played super smash bros. ...I KNOW! I'm not a video game type of guy, but back in the day I always use to play that game, and I guess I just felt like it last night...we had a rather amazing match between all of us...the end results were as follows: 1. Mike as pikachu 2. Sky as samus 3. Justin as fox 4. Kenny as capt. falcon ...it was a good fight...after that though Kenny had to go home so I drove him back...he gave me a music program to put on my computer and my laptop once I get it...it's called frooty loops (FL Studios)...it's the program Richard has, and now I got a copy of it and I intend on using it so...yeah, I'm very excited about it. B-don called me up telling me that I had to go to pop life tonight 'cause I've never gone and it's the last night to chill before school starts and it's my type of place so I said "ok"...I met up w/ him in plantation, and then I met some of his friends...Kristin,Anastasia,Kylewilliam...we all gathered in Kristin's car...she was the one driving...it was pretty gangster...I was already looking forward to it even though I've never been there before...but, here's the crazy part...and you all might think I'm out of my mind for this, but I gotta tell you...after this moment in time I have never felt more alive in my entire life... we got into a car accident...and it happened like this... Kristin was the one driving, and the light in front of us which was like 100 or so ft. away already turned red, and she rushed it...she pushed on the gas and said "fuck it! we're not waiting anymore tonight"...and she totally completely ran a red light, and all of us in the car were like "no way, this is the most hardcore thing ever"...and she was speeding her ass off, and as she turned to get onto the highway...she like turned too much as she was speeding and the car went completely out of control and started spinning...we didn't hit any cars...but we did however knock down a speed limit sign and tore up a fence...and then we suddenly completely stopped...the first thing that B-don and myself asked everyone in the car was "does anyone have anything illegal?"...he was paranoid 'cause he was drinking a little last night, but he already knows that I'm living clean now so yeah...we didn't know about everyone else...and no one had anything bad so it was good...we all got out of the car for a minute to take a deep breath and all...and I was thinking the whole time "wow, I haven't felt so aliv in a really long time"...it was weird...it was like I had to feel alive and realize something through a tragedy...even a minor one...it was a very interesting moment and I wont forget it...her car was fine...we all got in and went back to plantation...they all decided not to go...but B-don really wanted to go and I still have never been there so I told him that I'll drive...so, I drove us down to the art district in miami and we went inside pop life and I must say...this place was amazing...I had a lot of fun...they played awesome music and there were cool people everywhere...although a percent of them were pretty whack...I saw a guy spit in this girl's face 'cause she was all over this other guy instead of him and then this huge fight broke out between them and even the girl was getting hit...it was fucking mad...but w/e...it was a nice lounge area...we all danced a little and I met some cool people and just hung out, and then B-don felt like we were lurking a little so he wanted to leave...so, we left and I took him home and then I decided to just go home 'cause it was late enough...and then I slept once I got home. no, it wasn't like that, but I think that is a pretty sweet photograph. if you're interested on checking out the scene of the accident the go to where pine island rd. intersects w/ state rd. 84, and on the corner where the 7-11 is you'll see the knocked down speed limit sign and the torn up fence...you might even see tire tracks. I woke up today at like 12:30-12:45...and I'm still really tired, but I'm not gonna sleep or else I'll sleep like shit tonight and then go to school tomorrow being all weird and shit around everyone 'cause I'm too tired so yeah...tomorrow...I'm not looking forward to it too much...I can't help but think people are all gonna be assholes and act fucked up and shit and just be odd characters...I'm gonna feel like a ghost very easily once again...I'm sure nobody is gonna feel like hanging around me or let alone talk to me, but what can I say?...I guess I shall just wait and see...at least I have a parking space and that I'm done walking now...that's a + this time around...well, I'm out for now...peace everyone. Current Mood: alive Current Music: Aphex Twin (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 12th, 2006
5:47 pm	the last 24 hrs. have been interesting... real quick...a bunch of spanish people randomly just walked into my house out of nowhere thinking that it was a friend's house...seriously, they just walked in...it was some fucked shit...it didn't take long for me to tell them that they were in the wrong place, but seriously...it was really fucking odd. yesterday... I had an odd occurance before I went to work as I was getting gas in my car...it wasn't a big deal...just odd...then work was work...Caroline got cut so I really didn't get to chill w/ anyone other than Alycia...she showed me this band called Citizen King, and they were pretty damn good...it had a Beck vibe to it even though it wasn't Beck, but it was still good. I went home for like a minute, and got myself a little cleaned up for the night 'cause people actually called me last night to hang out and all... - Abbie - B-don - Mike - Richard - Schnoor ...that was the few who called...Abbie ended up "forgetting" to call back...w/e, I don't care...she chilled w/ Seb, but now today she called me back and was like "I'll call you later. I promise! I want to hang out w/ you"...Richard was w/ Ryan and they weren't at his house so they were gonna call me when they got there...Schnoor wanted to chill w/ me,Kenny,Nathan,and a few others but Kenny was gonna stay in for the night and Nathan was w/ Emily and Ricky and someone else I think so that there was dropped...Mike had a get together at his house w/ a lot of people so I felt that'd be the best idea even though I planned on going there anyways 'cause Caroline was gonna do a photoshoot for us...I told B-don he'd be allowed to chill, but not until I got there...I get there and I met a few people and just hung out...they made a prank phone call and I was just listening in...B-don got there and I was just chillin' w/ him...then we chilled w/ everyone else...Alyssa was there and I barely ever see her, but chillin' w/ her was fun...she's a pretty gangster girl...a few people left and Mike & I did our photoshoot...the pics were overall amazing!!!!...we've got the perfect image that we're trying to capture...it was really fucking awesome...I think it'll present a good image of our music. I ended up chillin' there for a little bit more and then all of a sudden it was 2:30 a.m. and Richard was all like "dude! are you gonna chill or not?"...I told him that I was on my way, so, I finished chillin' w/ everyone at Mike's, and then I drove on over to Richard's house...him and Ryan were making some pretty gangster music...I was hoping to sit in and help out a little bit w/ it 'cause I was interested in doing so...but I guess they didn't want to do much of it once I got there...we just listened to music and chilled for awhile and then it got a little too late, or shall I say too early?...it was 5:15 a.m. and they were planning on passing out so...I left and went home...I went to bed at like 6:30 a.m. this morning...I woke up about 2 hours ago...and later on I'm going bowling w/ everyone 'cause it's Kenny's last night being here and we really don't know when we'll see him again next time so...that's about it...not much but w/e...this is probably the last chance to chill or do something for the summer unless something happens for some reason tomorrow, but anyways...if anyone wants to chill...anytime at all I guess then just give me a call...I'm out for now...peace! Current Mood: rejuvenated Current Music: instead of dancing alone, I should be dancing w/ you (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 10th, 2006
10:16 pm	DUDE! it smells like you raped a fish! ok, so, yesterday was an amazing day...although it was also a bit sad. yesterday was Sean's last day, but it wasn't in full...I only had the morning to spend w/ him...we went to starbucks one last time, and then I drove him to the air port :( ...we had one last conversation on the way there...he was telling me about 12 step recovery programs, and how it was like when he went through one...he then went on to tell me that his examiner told him that in all her years of doing what she does...she has never encountered anyone who was so pissed off at lots of things in his life than my brother, and then she went on to tell him that he shouldn't feel that bad 'cause most people have it a lot more worse...that's when she told him about this 18 year old girl that had been raped/molested/had sex w/ by her own father 6-10 times a day for ten years straight...that there is completely fucked up when I heard about it, but hearing about it made my brother understand that he didn't have it that bad after all...he said that 12 step recovery programs actually help people, and people may act normal and sane but they actually have a flaw to them that a 12 step program can take care of easily...he told me about programs they had for people who are addicted to video games, or let alone reading books...I was like "are you fucking serious?"...and he said "yeah, they have a 12 step program for everything basically"...I asked him if I should do one 'cause if it makes you better in some way then maybe I could give it a shot and see just for an experience...he then told me something I'm never going to forget, and I don't think he was bull-shitting me either just to be nice...he told me that out of everyone he has ever encountered in his life...he feels that I'm the only person he knows who is able to control themselves and manage to get their shit together if they ever needed to, and that I seem more organized than most others and that if I was ever having a rough time that I'd be able to get through w/ it on my own even if it took a little time...I felt that that could go w/ anyone...he then told me "most would think so, but in truth they don't have what you have, Sky"...did it boost my confidence?...in a way...I learned many great things through my brother while he was visiting, and that last conversation we had put me in a more understanding mood...I feel like I have more control now and that I can take away all the bad things about me and turn them into something good, and I like that a lot...I already miss my bro...he might be back soon for the holidays though, and if not then he'll be out of the service in a year or so. I have Morningwood :D lol, oh yeah! ...the cd that is, and I actually like it a lot...it's very crafty and groovy...I can get into the songs easily and chill to them...the whole album is rather good all the way through. I saw Steely Dan & Michael Mcdonald last night...it was so fucking awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've seen Mike Mcdonald before, but I mainly went for Steely Dan, and they were so fucking amazing...I haven't seen a band that was as tight as them since DMB...like, wholy shit, they were so tight altogether...it was so fucking amazing all the way. after the show I went to davie ale house w/ Tim,Alex,Chris,Steve and myself...I use to chill w/ these guys back when I was growing up...I got more back to my roots w/ them last night which I enjoyed a lot...Tim is a good man, and a funny one too along w/ Alex now...Tim just has a really good perspective on life...all these guys are in their mid-20's too, and Tim is the only one who probably has the most logical out-look...Alex burped, and it smelled really bad for like 2 minutes...kinda like if someone farted around you or w/e, and Tim was all like "DAMN ALEX! it smells like you raped a fish or some shit like that"...I was lmfao...it was the funniest shit I've heard in a long time...he was drunk too, but he was still sober in a sense of mind...our waitress asked Alex what he wanted to drink, and he was being all slick like "I want a tall glass of your love & affection", and it was the best...our waitress cut her finger on glass and she had this strip on her finger and it looked like a condom (funny enough as it was...it happened to be on her middle finger)...Tim was all like "oh that's clever, it looks like a condom. although, it's a little small and it shouldn't be there...it should be on my penis."...it was the fucking best time...our waitress only clicked w/ Chris though since he was a jew, and our waitress was a jew so I guess they had the jew click according to everyone at the table...she actually wanted Tim's number, but when we paid the bill Tim rushed out 'cause he didn't want anything to do w/ it...it was an awesome time though...I'm surprised that we were there until 2 a.m. today...hmmmm...it was interesting I guess...Kenny came down and I hung out w/ him for a little and then I went to work...I went to the cd warehouse out off of pines blvd. ,and shockingly enough it was closed down...it really upset me that it's not there anymore :( ...so, now I have to try and find the YYYs cd elsewhere. work was ok...I worked from 4-8, and there was this girl who was in the store for 45 mins. laughing about stuff w/ her friend and constantly walking around in circles...and then I went on my break, and when I came back in she was there and she stopped me and said that she was waiting for 45 mins. to say something to me because she thought I was really cute and she was trying to find something to say w/o looking weird and stuff...it boosted my confidence no doubt, but at the same time...I think she's already too into me, and I'm a little drawn away from that at the moment 'cause even though she's nice and all, and actually not bad looking really...she isn't really doing it for me...I'm not trying to find a new girl anyways...I don't feel like I need to...I'm content w/ things right now and I don't want to do something that I might regret which has already happened a couple months ago...and though I am sober and clean now still, I just don't think I should hang around her...although, I have been waiting an awful lot for sometime now...still nothing has happened even though I try and try...I keep it real and I wait for a moment that hasn't come yet...I wait to bring balance and to rekindle w/...yeah, I'm not gonna say anything or mention names...who knows, I might be waiting for nothing...I don't want to think like that though...it's 3 a.m. right now, and this girl who has already called me like 5 times tonight is already asking to hang out, and wants me to drive out to her house to hang out...I am flattered 'cause no one has really asked me to do so since I've had my car...I just don't know...I've balanced out things in my life and got more clear w/ certain stuff, and I don't want to make it unbalanced, and I feel like I'll be doing that if I go right now...I just met this person too...I should probably just stay back and go to sleep or something. tomorrow...I'm chillin' w/ Kenny at sawgrass then I have to work then I'm doing a photo-shoot for the band and then that'll be that pretty much and then I'm FREE all day saturday...YAY! :) I'm surprised I wrote so much...I couldn't help it...I'm just in the mood right now. ...but, I'm out (not leaving my house which means I have to make up an excuse to this girl, but I'll feel better about myself and everything else then by doing so)...I'm better off keeping it real and just going to sleep now...besides, there is only a small select of people I'd drive out to right now, and I'm not gonna say their names...it's only like 3-4 people who I'd drive out to right now if they wanted to hang out w/ me and all now...but this girl isn't one at the moment so I'm gonna have to stay back...I'll thank myself when I wake up...peace everyone. Current Mood: confused Current Music: ... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 8th, 2006
1:21 pm	for my brother...I will miss you... today is the last time I will get to see him for a long time to come. since I'm the only one w/ a car I'll be driving everywhere today, but I'm fine w/ that...we're gonna go do a few more things today and have one last hurrah at starbucks and places where we've been chillin' at since he's been here...and then tomorrow, after I get my parking permit at school...I have to take him to the air port :( ...I feel like a good person hanging out w/ him...I've learned a lot through him by hanging out so much...things like monogomy, the government, the future, and life itself...my brother is a good guy...a lot better than my older brother...I'm gonna miss him a lot when he leaves tomorrow afternoon...he's been the only person who has taken the time to really spend w/ me and hang out w/ me and talk to me and whatnot...he's the only person who seemed to care enough about me while he was here...my older brother never does stuff like that for me, and he's always around...he just likes to compete w/ me...my other brother though, I love him...he really cares about how I think & feel...he's really interested in all the things that have happened in my life since the last time he visited...I've told him many things...it's funny...I didn't start drinking or smoking really until he left last time he visited, and then a year later a realized that it was the worst half of me...so, I took a lot of time to clear up, and when he came back for another visit this time I was all better again like nothing ever happened, but I still tell him about it and what I've learned through it all...he "scored" a few times w/ a couple people...he's not a player, but he's just looking for love I guess...I pretty much drove him to every date he had...I also helped him get his driver's license which he got last friday which by the way...I had what someone like Laurel would call "a Larry David moment"...I was at the dmv waiting w/ my brother to take his driver's test, and I'm really glad he was using Ma's car instead of mine...I had to park the car in a certain parking space for the driving course only, and when I was coming in I accidentally forgot that my foot was on the gas peddle, and I hit it instead of the break to ease into the parking spot...and I hit the parking curb real hard, heavy, and loud...EVERYONE outside the dmv waiting to take their driver's test looked at me in shock (like 20-25 people) all looking at me w/ blank looks on their faces, pierced eye balls looking straight at me, and their jaws were all dropped...lmao, it was pretty funny...I rolled down the window on the passenger side and yelled "I swear that's never happened before...it's the first time...nothing to see here people"...and then I started laughing a lot...my brother thought his examiner would've failed him for that thinking that a crazy person was helping him drive, but instead, my teachings helped him pass the test...it was awesome...I'm off work for the next couple of days which I like...I got out of work at 7 p.m. last night, and I didn't really do anything except hang out w/ my brother at home...I'm hoping for other stuff to happen...hopefully someone calls me to hang out or something...'cause I know once my brother leaves tomorrow I'm gonna have no one to hang out w/ after that...Pops & I are gonna go see Steely Dan tomorrow night...I'm really looking forward to that...then saturday is Kenny's last day in town...I'm off work all day too surprisingly, and we all planned to go bowling for one last hurrah...after that idk...I don't have much going on as much as I wish I did...all my friends like to get "fucked up" or have sex w/ random people...I'm not wanted amongst them anymore...well, I'm out for now...I'm gonna spend some time w/ my bro today...probably only until the sun goes down 'cause then he does his own thing and has to get ready for the trip back tomorrow...I'm out for now, but I'll be free later on this evening...hopefully something good turns out. Current Mood: okay Current Music: she is starting to live her life...from the inside (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 7th, 2006
10:58 pm	this is LJ worthy for those who don't check out my blog... this is what I feel like... incase anyone is wondering...this has nothing to do w/ Nxxxa...she is one person I can honestly say that I don't care about anymore...and how much I tried to be "cool" w/ her was only failures for me...some people would call me an obsessive creep,even her, I wouldn't go that far...I guess I'm too EMOtional...I feel like the guy in that painting...and she on the other side is going to get more lost and confused, and I'm gonna try to find another way, but it will only be unsuccessful...I'm not a negative person...I'm just not in a positive mood right now...the worst of me comes out when I'm alone...which happens a bit frequently now...I feel like my hopes are always being given up...should I give up?...idk yet...only time will tell...I never get much out w/ my emotions...I'm not embracing, and that upsets me even though it's not my fault...nothing much comes out of poems or lyrics...idk how long I will run around in this puzzle...I'm still WAITING to embrace...I'm still WAITING to be picked up...I realize that I WAIT a lot...it's not my fault...nobody really knows how I feel...I don't expose myself to the world...that painting above should be enough exposure for anyone...I know what it feels like now...does anybody else know?...did anyone forget?...does anyone still know?...I wonder...should I wonder?...idk...maybe I shouldn't...although being a careless person wouldn't be my character...I can go on & on & on, but who cares? "I'm not a bad man...I'm just over whelmed" -SWR Current Mood: lonely Current Music: w/ my back turned to you at least I know we tried (Comment on this)
Friday, July 21st, 2006
1:06 am	Immerse Your Soul In Love!!! well, I'm back w/ another entry, but this one has real meaning to it, so, I don't mind sharing it w/ others. what is love & what is hate - ? & ? why should it matter?...idk, but I guess it's only best to know the real true meaning between the 2...I'm sure all of us know and understand the meaning of hate, and I'm sure we've all felt it many times...but why have we mastered the feeling of the worst half?...why can't we all master and embrace the meaning of the better side instead?...I really think I found the true meaning of love today...after all this time...I think I know what it means now...my grandmaother on my Ma's side of the family has been staying w/ us for a week now...she's a pretty cool old lady...unfortunately she lost her husband, my grandfather, earlier this year (3 months ago...over spring break)...all I ever heard about at those times was how much pain she was in...I didn't plan on bringing it up to her at all during her visit w/ us 'cause I don't want to see her upset at all...but I guess I just couldn't help myself...I never went to the funeral since it was out of state and all...I had to let her know that I at least cared...I feel probably somewhat as bad as she does since I didn't even really know the guy or let alone sit down and have a man to man chat w/ him...I never really knew him...I just know him through photographs...anyways...I really couldn't find the words to say...I didn't want to apologize 'cause that's too typical...I never wished bad upon him or her anyways...so I pretty much struggled w/ my words when I was trying to tell her...she was just sitting on the back porch this evening...working on a crossword puzzle...she looked at me and I just happened to pull the words out from my throat and just said "hey, you know, idk how to say this...I really didn't want to talk about this while you were here 'cause I want you to enjoy your stay and all, and I don't want to see you upset, but I also don't want you to think that I don't care 'cause I do...anyways, I feel really bad that you unfortunately lost grandpa, and..." ...she stopped me right there and grabbed my arm as I stood right beside her chair...I looked at her in the face, and I saw the tears in her eyes...just seeing how quickly emotional she got by me just mentioning his name showed me how much she loved & cared for him...she then told me "stop it, you don't need to say anything else...I don't want to talk about it either, but thank you for caring"...as I walked away, letting her continue her crossword puzzle as she sat by the canal, it hit me...I really feel like I understand the meaning of love now...I thought I understood it before, but in truth, I found it earlier this evening...the fact that when the one you love & care for is gone, and that when they're mentioned for a second in time you start to feel that pain of losing that great feeling that you don't have anymore...it's sad, but good to understand and know that you have real feelings and true emotions...how could anyone be pure w/o that sense of thought in your mind?...the truth is, you can't...it's just best to know and understand...I'm just overall glad that I know and understand now...who ever I get to really hold in my arms next will be somebody I love. thanks for reading this if you did...peace! Current Mood: grateful Current Music: Circa Survive - "you mean so much more to me" (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 15th, 2006
5:22 pm	VERY IMPORTANT NEWS! : Ms. FL. pageant hey everyone, I know that in my last entry I said I wasn't gonna do anymore entries, but I can't seem to sign in correctly through MS right now...I don't think it's working right...I was gonna post a bulletin or something, but this is my only other choice right now...a last resort I guess... my sister's pageant is tonight...it starts at 7 p.m. live on channel 7...I went to the preliminary last night, and I must say...I honestly think my sister is gonna beat all these other girls that are going up for this...I've been anticipating so much about this for the past few weeks...when I'm w/ her in public I tell everyone I know that shes the future Ms. FL. ...I really think shes gonna make it...I hope all of you will support and watch her tonight...I know I will. [also, this part does not consist of why I wrote this, but I'd like to just mention it for a minute since I'm really happy about it... (idk if any of you saw my bulletin the other day, but I went to the butterfly salon to get my hair done, and I must say I feel like a new me...image wise I guess you could say, but I'm loving it...I don't have pics up yet, but I hope to have them soon...I kinda sound self-obsorbed, and thats extremely bad...after witnessing how some of those pageant girls act about their appearance and all...I really gotta watch myself now, lol...I'm just really happy about it 'cause it's a different look for me...that's all.) ...ok, that's it!...PEACE!] (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 9th, 2006
1:48 am	theres a place where you are going...you ain't never been before I'm gonna quit LJ...it does nothing for me at all anymore...I use to get a couple people comment me here & there, but now I just type a lot of stuff that nobody wants to talk to me about...I guess I've got nothing interesting enough for them to comment on?...idk...I really don't care anymore...this all seems like a waste of time anyways... it's funny, before I came up here on the computer tonight, I felt this strange aura in the air...like...all of a sudden my mood was changing...it's really strange...but I know why I feel that way...I like to communicate w/ others...I seem to do that best in person...it's a lot easier for me since the person is right in front of me, and I'm always in a good mood so it makes things good for everyone...but when I come to the computer...my life suddenly has turned into me living behind a fucking screen...it's so fucking rediculous...and nobody communicates w/ me...barely do I get anything good now on MS...it's just w/e...I don't seem to matter to anyone when it comes to the computer...well you know what, would my life be any different w/o LJ or MS...NO!...if anything I'd be better off not worrying about any of this shit anyways...MS, I atleast keep in touch w/ those I care about and I get to do more there than I do here...so, yeah, FUCK LJ!...this is the last entry...I mean that!...and if I comment anyone's entries from now on then w/e...thats my own business...I'm not gonna write anymore entries anymore though...it's only wasting my time when I never get any feedback. I AM GOING TO SAVE INDIE ROCK!!!!!!!!!! my music is well on it's way...Mike just got back in town from Canada...we're gonna finish writing some material, and then we're gonna go record, and then a photoshoot, and then a MS music page, and then things are gonna go from there...but yeah, I'm really happy about it, and I'm hoping for it all to turn out well...I'm just happy that Mike & I are gonna bring a different sound to the local scene...I'm hoping for the response to be positive...we shall see....indie rock will rise soon enough around here. I hung out w/ Abbie and Brittany yesterday...Kevin hung out for a little bit, but then had to go home...we all did tarot readings on eachother...Brittany gave me one, and I was shocked by how true it was...Abbie was laughing 'cause she knew it was true...I've been a little different by it though...like, I feel better after going through w/ it...it was fun, and Brittany is a super awesome person...she is my savior as far as music goes...she has been fortunate enough to hook me up w/ the Yeah Yeah Yeahs - "Fever To Tell"...YAY!!!! =) ...and not only that, but she also hooked me up w/ The White Stripes - "Elephant" and Muse - "Origin Of Symetry"...I was so happy...it was the best evening I've had since last fri. actually...I drove Abbie to some place she needed to go to, and then I went home for the night. my room is pretty much done now...I've just gotta move my instruments back in there and then when I get the new furniture I have to work that out...I've already decided that 1/2 of my room is gonna be for my music stuff 'cause now I'm gonna start setting up my own little studio in there, and then the other 1/2 is going to be for my living conditions. I get my car in the next few days, and I'm really looking forward to that...it's about fucking time, I say...I need to stop borrowing Ma's car enough as it is. Action Action is this thursday, and I'm really excited about it, but at the same time I'm a little let down 'cause idk anyone whose going, and I have no one to go w/, or let alone anyone who wants to go w/ me...either way I'm gonna go enjoy the show...the music should do me well...I haven't been to a show by myself anyways in a long time. well, here I go...this is it...if I ever come back then it'll only be for a very very VERY extremely good reason...other than that...I'm out...PEACE! -Sky Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: . . . (Comment on this)
Friday, July 7th, 2006
2:13 am	on my list now: Yeah Yeah Yeahs ... Tegan & Sara ok...after getting the new Flaming Lips album...I realized that I need to get a few more new discs for myself to listen to 'cause I'm having so much fun listening to other music that I love and just exploring it and embracing it...I love it! I was at work earlier today, and all the managers were doing this big meeting in the back room, and I was the only associate on the floor for like 2 hours doing my own shit and everything...it wasn't that busy either, but if it did get busy then I took care of it...not a big deal though since it was early...I got to listen to w/e I wanted too...and my favorite channel on our system is the indie-garage rock channel...which has: Action Action, Hard-Fi, She Wants Revenge, The White Stripes, Interpol, The Faint, The Strokes, The Killers, Arctic Monkeys, The Postal Service, etc. ...so, today I explored the channel a little more w/ some other ones that I've been wanting to listen to more...so, within 2 hours I was able to slip in Yeah Yeah Yeahs "Fever To Tell", and Tegan & Sara "So Jealous"...and WOW!...I loved both of them entirely...I heard a little from each of them in the past, but since it wasn't so busy I was able to just chill in the store and listen to them both...amazing!...I want those albums now!...someway, somehow...I love "Y Control" by Yeah Yeah Yeahs...so amazing!...and "Walking W/ The Ghost" by Tegan & Sara is so fucking awesome...I love it...I want to listen to them now, but I unfortunately don't have them =( ...hopefully soon enough though...if anyone would like to help me out w/ my music craving then ofcourse I would definately appreciate that greatly =) those songs are still in my head, lol, it's amazing...tomorrow my whole room will be completely empty...carpet ripped out and everything...I love having so much room in my room now...it's great...I'm free all day tomorrow and I'm really looking forward to it...I want to go to starbucks 'cause I surprisingly haven't been there yet this week, so, yeah...idk though...maybe I'll do something else...we shall see...peace everyone! Current Mood: mellow Current Music: YYYs / T&S - in my head (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 5th, 2006
4:13 am	PEOPLE ARE HAVING SEX IN MY ROOM!!!!! well, the night is finally over, and I am so glad that I'm living a clean & sober life now. tonight was a little bit crazy at some points...everyone is literally out of their fucking minds...all I gotta say is that my room is getting totally redone very soon...it's almost completely empty now, and once it gets finished then it's no longer going to be a party room...sorry everyone =/ ...tonight was the last time for that...I pretty much just had Ryan & Madison show up first...then Emily & Jessica...then Nathan...then we were soon joined by Shawn & Alycia...then Marcus came...then Summer...then Seb along w/ Javier & Becca...and then Eric...it was amazing the whole old crew of HT was chillin' in the kitchen...it was so awesome...we got lots of pictures of that...Matt, Ricky & Andrew showed up, and they just chilled w/ Emily & Nathan the whole time...Jessica was just there I guess hanging out w/ them...they were all just drinking themselves away w/ the bottle that Madison & Ryan brought over...Matt had gonj that him,Ryan & Madison smoked...Eric got caught up w/ talking to my sister...I just hung out in the kitchen w/ the HT crew talking about w/e while cooking some pizzas...Matt, Ricky & Andrew left and then Jessica was kind of passing out...so, Emily & Nathan decided to leave...Emily was being a real bitch...she pissed me off w/ her drunken antics...and Nathan just had to deal w/ that shit...w/e...she got what was coming for her...she puked right outside Nathan's car...and then they left...I told Nathan to call me once he reached his house and he never did...so...I currently really don't know if they're ok or not =/ ...Emily was just complaining and Nathan was like "I gotta do it for her bro...this & that"...I know they love eachother, but it's just madness when shit like this happens...they always find a way to bring drama into their lives...it's crazy...after they left Jessica started puking...I guess Ryan called Tommy & a couple of his buddies and then they showed up along w/ Jesse...Ryan & Jesse are like...not on good terms at all anymore surprisingly...it's a little odd, but I can understand when I hear what Ryan says about it...Jesse is like not a sanitary person, and he doesn't clean himself or anything, and Ryan would definately know from hanging out w/ him a lot, and...yeah, after hearing Ryan mention it I can kind of notice the smell and stuff whenever he's around...it's pretty gross...the whole HT crew left and then I just chilled w/ the crazy fucked up non-sober people, and Madison wanted me to be the photographer, and document the evening...so I did, but I didn't take all the pictures...just most of them...Briana, Brittany and her b/f showed up...they were cool and all...then Bri's b/f showed up...my sister & Tommy broke out into a huge conflict...and then Tommy was like "fuck this" and left...Jesse left at the same time...then the other guys that Tommy was w/ left...and then Jessica finally left thanks to Brittany & her b/f...they came back after dropping her off, and then left...then Briana & her b/f left...and then my sister wanted to go to sleep, so Eric left...and wow...thats about it...now Madison & Ryan are sleeping together on the fold-out couch in my room...and I'm still awake 'cause I'm not really tired at all surprisingly...I wish I could play the drums right now, but I can't...I'll just pick up the guitar right now...I'm just gonna be up for a little bit more, and then I'll try to go to sleep once Ryan & Madison finish their dirty business...oh, and also...if anyone wants to see the the pictures...just let me know, and I'll give you Madison's LJ if you don't already have it...'cause she's gonna post them on her page since it's her camera, and idk when she's gonna post the entry, but if you wanna see the pics then just let me know and I'll give you her LJ...there are some rather good pictures...I like all the pictures I have on my MS right now, but I feel like switching a couple out...which ones should I switch out if I were to put new ones in? quick question: earlier tonight during dinner I brought up The Flaming Lips to Pops 'cause I just got the new album by them that they released earlier this year, "At Way W/ The Mystics", and I think it's amazing...I'm listening to it even now...great album...my bro starts debating w/ me that Coldplay is way better...excuse me?...I'm sorry, but I do like Coldplay, although I totally do not think they're better than The Flaming Lips...I didn't start liking Coldplay until I heard "A Rush Of Blood To The Head", and then after that I started to like the first album, "Parachutes", but I was very upset w/ "X & Y"...after I first heard it, I gave it a few more listens, you know, giving it a chance and all to play out, and in the end of all the chances I gave it I just said to myself "wow, I'm so disappointed w/ this...and I'm upset that I was so hyped up about it that I actually bought it on the day of it's release"...out of the 13 tracks on that album, I can only say that 3...maybe 4 songs are good tracks, but c'mon...why Coldplay?...I really thought they were gonna go beyond "A Rush Of Blood To The Head", and they ended up not doing that at all...wtf? The Flaming Lips...I fist got my taste of them at the Langerado music festival earlier this year, and it was AMAZING!!!!...after that day, I got some stuff by them right away, and right now, for a band whose been around for over 20 years, I've heard only 3 albums and some other old songs so far, and they're all great songs..."The Soft Bulletin" is the first album I got, great album...really strong songs on that one...then I got "Yoshimi Battles The Pink Robots"...WOW!!!!!...that one did it just one more better for me, that album is amazing, and I heard some old stuff...then a couple days ago I got the new album, "AT War W/ The Mystics", and it's an amazing album...once again, they never fail to please...they are a great band, and I would definately pick them over Coldplay any day...I have to hand it to Chris Martin though for a minute...at least he's cool enough to say that his lyrics aren't anything special or let alone that great at all...which is why they've never been printed in any of the booklets that the albums came w/...so, I'll give 'em that...Wayne Coyne though, is a far more open, spiritual, honest, and more than down to Earth person...he's become one of my heroes just for the way he is and how he presents himself...and his lyrics are actually printed in the booklets that come w/ the albums...read them sometime...they really are awesome words that were spoken very well, and being said during an awesome song at the same time. so yeah, for me... The Flaming Lips > Coldplay what about you?...what would you say to that? ok, well, I'm gonna just go chill or something for a little bit, and then I'm gonna try and go to sleep if Ryan & Madison aren't busy...tomorrow I plan on just hanging out and all...finish up my room...possibly go to Starbucks or something...idk yet...if anyone wants to hang out then let me know...peace! Current Mood: awake Current Music: The Flaming Lips - "what would you do?" (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 2nd, 2006
10:25 am	will I wake to find you waiting by my bed side? last friday was an awesome day, but I'm not gonna spoil it by talking about it right here right now. yesterday was I good day...I woke up early, and there was a big garage sale thing going on my street, but I didn't contribute anything...I would've since I'm getting rid of so much shit, but I was doing too many other things prior to that that I didn't have time to do so...I went to work, and Marcus was like "Sky, you hours got cut today, so, instead of leaving at 5, you'll be leaving at 3"...and I was like "ok, great...fine by me"...I worked and spoke w/ Marcus...he didn't know I was doing my own music, and he was very interested in hearing it...I told him once we record then I'll be sure to let him hear it right away...he said that'd be great 'cause he's starting a clothing company w/ some friends, and he'd like to manage my band and make merch and stuff for us from his clothing line, and I was like "well damn, that'd be awesome"...so, I already have someone interested in managing for us when we haven't even recorded what we wrote yet...I guess thats cool...I was wearing my signed Copeland shirt, and this girl came in telling me that she knows them and hangs out w/ them and all this other stuff...we had a good conversation about that...then out of nowhere one of my Radiohead pins got caught on the shoe rack and broke...completely busted...I was so upset about it...I had the picture that connects to the pin, and that was it...I gave it to Caroline when she clocked in, and I told her not to lose it 'cause it'll mean something one day...she told me she was gonna try to fix it, and then I told her w/e she does w/ it now is her business 'cause I'm basically giving it to her, but just don't lose it. Caroline, Marcus and I just chatted w/ her the whole time and we helped some customers here & there...Alycia came in and we all just did w/e...I got out at 3, and as I was leaving Laurel and Brittany were there w/ another friend of theirs, and I said hi to them and all, checked my schedual, asked Brittany if she was working 'cause I was gonna go to starbucks later, and then I left...Ma & I went to rooms to go to check out some new furniture for my room...then I went home and for some reason I slept for a couple hours...I was pretty tired...I woke up at 6:30-7:00, and then I went to sushi sogo w/ Ma, and then I was gonna go to starbucks w/ Madison, but nothing happened so I just went to Ryan's house where she was...it was just me,her,her friend,Ryan & Becky...they all wanted to get crunk as fuck, but I ofcourse was not in the mood so I was like "yeah, fuck this" in my head...luckily I got a call from Seb telling me that Into The Moat was gonna play a private show at Matt's house (Matt is the drummer for ITM incase nobody knew) ...apparently he posted a bulletin talking about it, so, I checked it, and there was his number...I called for directions, and then me & Madison and her friend went on over there...I get there and little Kori was standing outside w/ Sarah & Erica...I'm always in a good mood whenever I see her...shes always happy, and shes just a good person...so, yeah, 2 bands played...this oneband was called Shitstorm...and then after them Into The Moat went on...lots of people showed up...talked to a few people and hung out...somebody went on a beer run, and Matt needed money for that to happen, and Sarah wanted to drink, but didn't have money to spare so, I bought her beer basically even though I wasn't drinking...Matt is a funny guy...when the beer got there he like wanted everyone to come in, and not hang out front his house, so, to get everyone's attention who were usually underaged...he'd yell something like "hey! underaged drinkiners, beer is inside!"...not considering that one of his neighbors might have been listening...it was cool...we all gathered inside...and watched Shitstorm play...all of their stuff was probably less than a minute long...and then Into The Moat played, and they fucking kicked major ass as usual...they played a new song, and it fucking just...WOW, it was so fucking good, no bass either 'cause they've been having troubles w/ that for awhile band member wise...it was fucking amazing though...inbetween songs this one drunk guy was like "hey Matt, people are actually sitting while you play the drums"...Matt looks from above his drumset and looks at those sitting, and he was like "hey, fuck you guy!" and then sits back down to play the next song...it was fucking hilarious 'cause c'mon...if you've ever seen this guy play drums...you would definately not be sitting around...you'd definately be on your feet...it was so awesome...I called my sister 'cause she didn't show up and I handed then phone to Matt 'cause my sister misses him and I guess letting them talk for a bit would only be right...after that I didn't know too many people who stayed...most people I knew left after ITM so...I left 'cause I didn't want to start feeling awkward...went home and slept...and then I woke up this morning thinking about..........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................if I spoke about it then I'd look like a waste of time. I gotta work all day today, and then later on...idk...I want to go to Starbucks at barnes & noble..idk yet...we'll have to see. peace! Current Mood: I'm ok Current Music: TSOAF (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 29th, 2006
12:35 pm	I thought what I said actually mattered to you I would like to start this entry out to a very special person...Remy. w/o Remy I'd really feel like nothing mattered at all...she really cares about what I have to say, and she is the one person who just cares. everyone & anyone who doesn't like her can say hello to my fist. Seriously, Remy is the nicest person I know, and she does not deserve shit from anyone or anything...so, hear my words this time...treat others the way you want to be treated. I wrote a rather large entry before this one...I wish I got more responses...sometimes I like to talk about the things I mention here 'cause...they're simply things that are on my mind which is why I wrote about them to begin w/...I guess I'm just not cool enought to get 30 + comments, or let alone 10...w/e...fuck 'em...like I said last time...desperation kills...I don't need to beg to those who'd rather not spend time w/ me...so, w/e. I had a pretty good day yesterday...I did a few things...I called a few people to hang out, but I got excuses and whatnot so, w/e...I'm not upset about that...once again, I'm the one offering a good time to others...some people actually had things to do so, I'm not getting mad...although some said they'd call me back, which, they never did... Caroline-had to get her nails done, and then hang out w/ a friend she hasn't seen yet at all this summer. Laurel-had to hang out w/ Ashley. ET-...I guess she just stayed home wanting to do nothing. Sarah-never called me after she got out of work. Schnoor-didn't pick up his phone. Nathan-at the beach w/ Emily, and just wanted to be w/ her. Jessica-working. Ryan-don't really know...he kind of blew us off. Abbie-would've hung out, but Kenny didn't want to drive all the way out to her house in sunrise. Madison-working. Lindsay-she actually called me, but she wanted to do drugs, and I was just like "ehhhh, no!" ...so, that's that, I guess...Kenny & I went to Neptune fireworks 'cause I was 18, and he wanted to get some stuff...what he bought actually kind of sucked, but it satisfied him so thats good...we went to taco bell for lunch...then we actually met up w/ Nathan after he dropped Emily off home from the beach...he had time to kill before work so...we all decided to go to starbucks to chill...I liked it a lot as usual...I actually met someone new there...this European guy who noticed my belt, and my wristband...I told him that I played a little piano and other instruments, and he was very pleased to hear that...we had an awesome conversation about music and he told me how much he hated rap and how he never wants his daughters to turn out that way...and how he gets mad about how...uhhh...I'd rather talk about this to whoever wants to hear it in person...after that Nathan went to work, and then Kenny and I went to go get his sister's from camp and then I came home as he took them home...I got a little tired so I took like an hour long nap...then I woke up and Jessica called me...she wanted to hang out so...she came over and then went to go see a movie 'cause we had nothing else to do...shes a nice person, and shes fun to hang out...she told me about how good "Cars" was, and if nothing else good was playing then we'd go see that..."Superman Returns" was sold-out, so, we went to go see "Cars", and I must say...for a G-rated movie...I actually liked it a lot...it was a really nice movie...really good movie...I suggest everyone go see it!...we then came back to my house, and I found out that this lady I knew throughout my childhood died...I paused for a moment in time, but I got through it...I found out later that night that she committed suicide =/ ...Nathan,Emily, and Lily came over to hang out and keep my dad company 'cause he was upset about it...Jessica left, and after everyone else left I went to sleep. I'm gonna go to sawgrass today w/ Kenny & Jessica...I'm looking forward to it a lot...I'm gonna go get ready...if anyone wants to hang out later then don't be afraid to ring my bell...oh wait! I forgot...nobody calls me when I offer...lol, I'm j/k everyone...seriously, I'll be free later if anyone wants to hang out...PEACE! Current Mood: happy Current Music: Chiodos (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 27th, 2006
12:18 pm	take 10 steps away from being alone I speak of the immense city, that daily reality composed of two worlds: the others, and in every one of them there is an I clipped from we, and I adrift, ...I speak of the buildings of stone and marble, of cement, glass and steel, of the people in the lobbies and doorways, of the elevators that rise and fall like the mercury in thermometers, ...of the coming and going of cars, mirrors of our anxieties, business, passions (why? toward what? for what?) of the hospitals that are always full, and where we always die alone, I speak of the half-light of certain churches and the flickering candles at the altars, the timid voices with which the desolate talk to saints and virgins in a passionate, failing language... -Octavio Paz from I SPEAK OF THE CITY it's been awhile, and thats a good thing...I don't need to be here talking about how good, or bad my life currently is...I really don't think any of you really care anyway about anything I say...you all say that you read what I say and that it does matter, but I really just don't feel that way inside of me...I don't feel like it's made any sort of positive response on my end...I feel like my words haven't reached out to any of you enough to feel anything at all inside...I failed you all, and thats the overall disappointment inside of me...one day though, I shall write a song that will have words of true feelings...words that will connect to you all...words that will follow through...words that will live on...words that will stand the test of time...words that will matter, and in return be shown in a positive way...I hope...one day... I finally went back to work on friday...after a 2 week break of not going on a trip I was suppose to attend...I enjoyed my break time though...I'd say that starbucks has been the one thing that has become a great deal to me in my life...a place to go when I want to chill and just communicate w/ others...I'm lovin' it...I probably went 10 times last week...this week...so far, once =/ ...I'll go again...people that I wish I'd run into there don't show up...it gets to me sometimes that I'm not where they are, but I can't help that...I'd call them, but I feel like desperation kills all of us, and I could never beg for another to spend time w/ me so...I leave it alone until maybe one day we can come together again. Mike went away to Canada for 2 weeks...lucky bastard...so, on fri. we had one last chill time w/ him until he went about his business the following morning...it was just me, Mike, Nathan & Ryan...we chilled and all of us got into a music mood so Mike and I would play some things on guitar and sing a little, and then Nathan & I would go out to his car where he'd show me the words he writes in poems...then we'd just chill a little more and then go home for the night to sleep. I woke up at 8 a.m. sat. morning to go to warped tour...but I didn't end up getting there early...which I was very glad about...I got there an hour late, which was actually great...I got there at noon, but my day there really didn't start until 2 p.m. ...in the morning I was w/ Seb and we had to go pick up a few people in far places and then come back to get ready at his house, I watched the music video for Scary Kids Scaring Kids while everyone got ready...Seb was telling me that they were gonna be there that day, and I thought the song was awesome, and the video for "My Darkest Hour" was great...so, I was looking forward to them now...we got there at noon, and then I went in and saw Christine & Lauren...talked to them for a bit and then I met up w/ Tati and then we went to go see R&B and I saw Abbie,Tyrone,Adrian,Steve,James,Duda...pretty much everyone,lol...it was fun...I saw Madison, and then we all looked around at the merch tents...I was very pleased that it wasn't so hot and sweaty this time around and that it was cloudy w/ a breeze this year, and the area was spaced out and not so crowded like last year...it was actually a lot better this year...I pretty much got all the times for the bands playing & looked at merch until 2 p.m. , thats when Scary Kids Scaring Kids went on...AWESOME fucking show, the keyboard player got up on the big speaker and then stripped to his boxers and then jumped off the rather tall speaker into the crowd 10 feet below him...it was great though...really fun, and then I had to see Abbie's band 'cause I never saw them before...they played right after SKSK at this other tent...I stayed for like 3-4 songs and then I wanted to go meet Underoath 'cause they were doing a meet & greet near by...the line was SO long, and Seb, Tati & I wanted to go see We Are The Fury 'cause they were playing near by...so, we went to go watch them and they were really good too...after that I rushed back to try and meet Underoath, and then this lady comes up to me and says "the line is cut right here, sorry!"...and I looked her dead into her stupid face and said "hey!...fuck you, lady!"...and then I walked away...I went to go catch the rest of Armor For Sleep...they were really good, and then I wnet back to the tent Underoath was at as they were finishing up their stuff, and then I was like 2 ft. away from all of them...they walked right passed me...I just looked at them and didn't say anything...I didn't want to bother them like all the other assholes following them around...Underoath is like...untouchable now...it's cool though...they're still amazing...I hung around for a little while and saw some more people and talked to them for a bit, and then I went over to the main stage to catch Underoath 'cause they went on at 5, and then sun was coming out for them and it got hot...I was 10 feet away from the stage and when they came on I fuckin' roared! I had a blast!...it was so fucking awesome...they put on ana amazing show!!!...I got tired of all the fucking gay crowd surfers so, I fuckin' started a pit...yeah, that's right!...I fucking started a pit for once!...and that shit kicked major ass!!!!...they paused for a moment to talk to the crowd and they said that they are believers in their faith very much which is why they play their music to begin w/ , but they knew that everyone isn't like them so they were talking about how they still love & respect anyone no matter what your beliefs are, and that the fact you showed up at the festival that day in support of some bands that you care about shows that you've got what it takes when you at least care for something 'cause sometimes caring is more than enough...it was really cool what they said...I then got out and I was a little bit of a mess, lol, I got some water and cleaned my body up and then I just hung around a rested my shaking body for awhile, and then out of nowhere, literally out of nowhere...I'm hanging out w/ a few people and then it all of a sudden rains so hard & heavy that all the equipment they had there that day got screwed up and they had to cancel the rest of the show...I got so furious!..."WHAT ABOUT THURSDAY?" I said...they told me to go home...the event was over for the day...I was in a bad mood then...I was SO close to seeing one of my favorite bands...I was SO close...and then the world just had to fuckin' rain on my parade...I then met up w/ Seb and everyone and then we went back to his house to clean up and then we ordered some pizzas and then watched a movie and then we all went home later on at like 1 a.m. ...while I was at Seb's house...to make-up for Thursday I watched the music video for "War All The Time" which I've never seen...it was a good video, and then I watched a live version on you tube for the song "Steps Ascending"...and I was really touched by the video for what Geoff Rickly, the frontman for Thursday, said before they played the song...he said "a while ago I very very good friend of mine and I got into a little dispute that turned into a huge fist fight, and it really wasn't pretty...after the fight we said some really hars things to eachother, and then stopped talking for as long as I could know......a year later I found out that that very same good friend of mine got shot and killed my someone, and it tore me up inside that I held ontop my bitterness after that fight that my last words to him were nothing thoughtful, but only hateful things, and I hate the fact that I held onto my bitterness so...this song is about that time in my life...it's called 'Steps Ascending'"...it was REALLY REALLY fucking awesome when I first heard those words...I was like "wow, thats how you write a song"...it was really great...I got home at like 1:30 a.m. ...showered and then went to sleep. I slept until like...1 p.m. and I was still tired when I woke up, but Steve wanted to go to the mall so that he could get the new South Park toys we got at my work, and he needed me there so he could get the discount...so I went w/ him...I ended up buying a SKSK shirt and a Le Tigre vinyl record that was on sale, and then my brother wanted to change phones & services...so, I pretty much just hung around the mall for an hour-&-a-half until he was done w/ that shit, and then we went home to eat dinner, and then Madison came over 'cause she has her car now, and then her & I went to starbucks to chill...I saw Erica and Dana and Kara...then Nathan, Ricky, and Andrew showed up...we al decided to hang out...I went to go visit Jessica at Tijuana Flats, and then we all went back to my house to chill and then we ended up getting hungry so we went to taco bell just for the hell of it, and they fucked up our order 3 TIMES!...I was laughing so hard 'cause Ricky had a fit and he was bitching them out in the drive-thru...idk why, but I found it funny just to see him over react over fuckin' tacos...we then went our separate ways, and I pretty much came inside to work on some music, and then Pops comes in yelling at me to empty out my room 'cause the floor people were comiing the following morning to measure my room for how much wood they'll need to lay out when the time comes...so, I put on some Underoath to work to, and idk why Pops had to ask me if I was putting on the music to rebel? I told him that I felt like listening to them while I work on my room, and to chill out 'cause they're singing about positive things rather then angry negative things...'cause I know just because theres a little screaming in them Pops has to take affense to it...I thought that was gay...w/e...I was up until like 3 or 4 in the monring cleaning out my room...it is now 1/2 empty inside and I'm still going at it...I went to sleep 'cause I was so tired, and then I was woken up at 8 a.m. 'cause the floor people were there to measure and then I ate something for breakfast, but I was still tired so when they left I went back to sleep, and then I was woken up again to do some other stupid shit...I was still tired so I went back to sleep again!, and then at 2 p.m. Pops wakes me up, again! telling me to stay up for the rest of the day now 'cause he was going out and he couldn't take me to work...I had to work at 4 p.m. so from 2 to 4 I just hung around...ate something...then got ready...and then Kait came to pick me up and take me...Kait is my older sister who I barely see anymore 'cause she hasn't lived at home for over a year now...I always try to have god times whenever shes around 'cause shes cool like that, but instead shes so fucking worked up on that Jonathen asshole who uses my sister, and then fucks around w/ other girls...that she takes it out on me, and then she starts telling me that I make Ma cry?...WTF?...not only did I feel like shit 'cause I had the worst sleep ever the night before, but she had to give me shit for no reason, and I was seriously like "WTF?" the whole time, so, I went into work being in the worst mood ever...if ANYONE visited me at my job yesterday then it was definately the worst time to ever catch me working 'cause I just wasn't in any good mood at all...I saw Roger, and I haven't seen him since Taste Of Chaos earlier this year so I spoke to him for a little bit...I closed w/ Marcus, and I have to say that he's the only reason why I got into a little bit of a better mood yesterday...he was like "Sky, fuck the customers, we do so many things to make shopping easier for them, just focus on getting this store looking good when we close 'cause we all have a life here, and we don't need to spend worrying about cleaning up after other people's messes and other bull-shit like that"...I was like "damn, bro, somebody is speaking the word now, just as I have felt it before"...so we closed a little early which I've never done before...it was only 'cause The Icing closes early EVERY NIGHT that Marcus was like "fuck that, they never get in trouble for closing there gate 5 minutes early, close our gate!"...and I did, and then we started doing our closing procedures...we got done a lot earlier than usual which made me feel good...I'm getting really sick & tired of trying to do something EVERY night w/ everyone...trying to do something fun and cool, and this & that...and everyone...everynight...that same shit...I'm sick of it...me: hey whats up?...them: nothing, bored, blah blah blah...I'm taking a stand to this...I'm living my life around boring-ness anymore...I'm doing something from now on...ET was the first person who took notice to it as much as I did last week when we hung out...she was like "Sky, why do you hang out w/ people who sit around bitching & complaing while doing absolutely nothing w/ their lives?"...I told her that idk, they've been good friends here & there, but these days they just fall apart...some are good & some are bad...idk what to think of it anymore, but I am not living my life around nothingness anymore...I'm pulling myself together now and I'm gonna make it right from now on...Nathan came over and we decided to go to wal-mart just for fun...and Jessica came to shop w/ us...we really weren't shopping as much as she was, but w/e...it was still fun...she went home and I went home, and then Nathan went home...I slept a lot better last night...today...Kenny called me...his mom's house is getting totally redone, and he needs a place to stay tonight so he's gonna be chilling at my house...I'm looking forwards to that 'cause no one has stayed at my house in like 3 or so weeks now...I'm off work wed. & thur. ...we might go to rapids 'cause Kenny really wants to go, and we're gonna get a bunch of people to come along...if you wanna go then let me know...I have to work fri. & sat. morning...but thats good...at least I don't close...I might be having a little shin-dig at the house on the 4th so...be on the look-out everyone...Sean, my bro in the navy, is coming down for a visit in like less than 2 weeks...I'm so excited...I haven't seen him in 2 years...I'm really looking forward to that...I get my car in 2 weeks, YAY!...Action Action is on the 13th, so excited!!!...Circa Survive on the 16th, can't wait!!!...anyone who isn't going to those shows are just...not cool =P , lol, j/k...seriously...everyone should go...it's gonna kick major ass!!!!!!...my sister's pageant is on the 14th & 15th...she just might be Ms. FL. , but we don't know yet...shes looking a lot better than she ever has before I must say...it's my sister, but it's true...anyways...Cyndy wrote me finally...I thought she forgot and wasn't going to, but she did =) and now I'm gonna write her back...PEACE everyone!...hope to catch some of you sometime for a real good time or something...idk...later. she's the song that you tried to sing and the note that you couldn't hit so you locked her up in a music box and turned the key on all of us she spins silver strings in the dark with metal teeth that ring in her heart when the cover drops the world just fades away from her waiting, waiting for her to say it: K-I-S-S - I'm in distress I need someone to spell it out: you know our love's not unconditional. Current Mood: better Current Music: Thursday - "Telegraph Avenue Kiss" (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 21st, 2006
5:18 pm	clear this room from your lungs the past few days have been great...I've been chillin' w/ lots of cool people...and it's been surprisingly nothing bad at all...pretty clean...I'm loving it...Chels might date Seb, and I think that'd be amazing 'cause Seb is an awesome person, and he's gonna help me & Mike record our music...speaking of, the music is going REALLY great right now...we have a new song thats coming together quite nicely...Madison finally started taking pictures...they'll be on my MS in a little while so check them out!...we kind of dragged on a little bit last night w/ nothing but noise on this one part, and it was pretty cool, but drove everyone insane, lol...Mike & I didn't care though...we usually play around w/ sounds until one of us finds something that we like and then we add onto it...I guess thats how it normally works...things have been coming together pretty good though...I'm not just saying that either...Justin recorded us on his phone, and it sounded really good actually...the quality was bad, but we sounded good on our playing part...it was good...we still have more parts to fill in...it's just the basic beats right now, and the melody along w/ it, and then everything is going to flow after that, and then I can start being creative on the keyboard...YAY! I went to coldstones yesterday & today, and Brittany wasn't there!...I wanted to visit her at work and say "hey!", but she wasn't there, and she always complains when I'm not at work when she comes to visit...w/e, one day we'll cross paths at our jobs or something...lol, idk. I've been driving a lot lately, from Ma's car to Chels's car...I've been driving all over the place...I'm so glad I'm getting mine soon...it's about time damnit! lol...so yeah, thats about it...I spoke to B-don last night for the first time since last weekend...he's doing a lot better now...he's at college and telling me when he'll be back for a visit so it's all good there. today was a very good day...I'm on the computer now for the first time today...I thought I would've gone all day w/o it, and I could've if I was still out...seriously...I was out all day pretty much...Kenny is in town and he came over at 10 a.m. this morning and then shortly after Nathan showed up and then we went to sawgrass at 11 a.m. ...I went into HT and saw Abbie at work, and Summer was working w/ her too...it was so awesome...they were happy to see me, and so was I...I got my Circa Survive ticket (YAY!)...and then Nathan & Kenny were eating Burger King for breakfast?...UGH!...sorry, but I can't aquire a taste for that shit in the morning...I told them that I'm gonna go to Starbucks 'cause it was near where we parked so they finished eating as I went to go chill there...it was good, I went last night too, that was good...I finished right when they got there and then we came back to my house and then went to Nathan's house to just hang out for a little, and then when Emily went on break at her job we went to go visit her...she had an hour long break so we chilled in that little plaza for awhile (I think it's the countryside shops, w/ Stein Mart,Publix,etc.)...it was cool...Christine wasn't working...I wanted to visit her...we left once Emily went back into work...then we went back to my house to meet up w/ Tati 'cause she was getting out of school and she wanted to hang out w/ us...then we all went to coldstones...Navia called me...haven't spoken to her in over a week...then I was just chillin' in coldstones w/ Tati,Nathan & Kenny...Tati & I didn't get anything, but Kenny & Nathan got these huge big mixture things, and it was gonna take them awhile to get through it all, and Starbucks has been growing on me a lot lately so I was like "fuck this, I'm going to starbucks"...Tati joined me, and I was so happy I went there...it's really chill in there...I love it...I saw Stephanie, that was cool...I saw the same girl working there today who worked there last night when I went in w/ Mike, Madison, and Justin...it was awesome...talked w/ Tati for awhile and just chilled for like half an hour, and then finally Kenny & Nathan show up after their huge ice cream eating festival, and Kenny was leaving to take Nathan home, and then he said he'd be back at my house...so, Tati and I just chilled and talked until I finished my mocha...then as we were leaving I stayed for like an extra 5 mins. 'cause I saw Kori there, and I haven't seen her in like 6 months, I also saw Erica (haven't seen her since school ended), and then I saw...I think it was Joey (haven't seen him in...idk how long, lol)...it was really good though...just chilled and talked, and then Tati had to get home so...she drove me back and then she left then Kenny & I just hung out for awhile...he told me that we've got plans tomorrow to go to the beach in the morning w/ anyone & everyone...it's gonna be amazing...Schnoor is coming! he might bring some others, Nathan & Emily, me & Kenny, and I'm gonna see on others...if anyone else wants to go then let me know!...it's gonna be awesome. I got the new Underoath & Keane...both are amazing! anyways...I've been having a great day today...I'm not gonna waste any of it by living behind this screen so, I'm gonna go for now, I'm gonna work on music in a little bit w/ Mike, and then I'm gonna chill w/ a few others...possibly more Starbucks later, lol!...anyways...I'm out for now...once again, I shouldn't have to offer, but incase anybody wants to hang out then just let me know...I don't talk to too many of you over LJ, but to the few that recognize and all...your always more than welcome...I'm out though for now...PEACE! Current Mood: happy Current Music: UNDEROATH - "pull yourself together man!" (Comment on this)
Monday, June 19th, 2006
2:15 pm	at the end of the road...you will find what you've been longing for hey unfaithful, I will teach you to be stronger hey ungraceful, I will teach you to forgive one another hey unloving, I will love you I feel a lot better all of a sudden...idk why, but since my last entry...I've been having a good feeling on many things...it's great...I had the car all last night so...cruising w/ some friends while listening to music is a good feeling...hanging out at Barnes & Noble last night until like 10:30...I've always been trying to find new things to do on sunday nights...I'm going there from now...it was so awesome...chillin' there and looking around, and enjoying some really good starbucks and just...running into cool people left & right...it was awesome...and then we all watched a bootleg copy of The Da Vinchi Code...it was ok...nothing that great...it's hard to see Tom Hanks being serious when only 20 years ago he was partying his ass off in "The Bachelor Party"...let alone him being a looney in "Forest Gump" only a little over 10 years ago, and then a few years ago he was stranded on an island 'cause he worked for FedEx is "Cast Away"...and now he's some big intelligent code cracking guy...lol, I just found it hard to see, I thought....after the movie we had a really good intellectual conversation (me,ryan,Mike & Pops)...it was a good night. I'm gonna go do something good today...don't know what yet, but something good...possibly music...would anybody like to hang out?...I still have yet to hang out w/ people I haven't chilled w/ this summer...but I don't need to offer...I know how the world works...it'll just happen...anyways...I'm out for now...peace. Current Mood: happy Current Music: silence (2 Comments |Comment on this)